Unexpected Change

It seems we all go through times of change in our lives, and occasionally it feels as though we are watching ourselves from the outside shape into a person. It's like I can feel myself growing into myself, into who I'm really supposed to be and the person on the outside is who I currently am. It's like a file on a computer, I would be the file labeled as pending, or in progress. As days progress, I try to hold onto everything, capture every memory, and feel the sunshine against my face. But I find myself in another place, getting so lost in the ability to take everything in that I lose the moment as a whole. Then there is these pockets of time I remember so distinctively, every tiny detail, and their the moments I wasn't even paying attention to at the time. Moments where someone pushed me out of my comfort zone to complete. Like this one time at night before my boyfriend was heading off to a different state, we climbed over a fence, and found ourselves in the middle of an empty soccer field under a blanket of stars, gripping each others hand, but breathing out laughter into the empty sky. Or this other time I found myself on the balcony of a back porch smoking my first cigar, that was grape. I don't even like grape flavored things, I hate them. But why do I remember the moments that I don't even mean to capture.  Well, I sat down to read a book tonight, a book I've been long anticipating to get into my hands. A story of someone's story, that all started with her wanting to write her own story because she read an inspiring one herself. It was all about finding beauty in the unexpected. I cozied up into the bathtub with candles, hot tea, and some good music. I automatically felt content, but as I read about how one's life can change in a matter of seconds, I realized people change in a matter of time because of those unexpected circumstances that occur. A concept, I've hated to grasp. That the people in my life who mean so much to me, who I've known one way for so long can all the sudden become something else, someone else. Hopefully, always for the better whether I am able to see that or not. But regardless, were in all the process of change. I suppose continuously. As we grow, we are exposed more and more to the world around us every day. To the heat against our face as sweat drips into our eyes and down the back of our necks, to the simple friendly encounters we have with strangers, or the the familiar smells we find that quickly take us right back. We become vulnerable, and I think thats when we truly are able to capture those moments of time. When were in a state with no walls and we feel it all, no restraints, no constrictions. We feel every bit of the moment, and we become more and more ourselves. Each of those vulnerable moments is shaping us into who were supposed to be. I guess, the unexpected is where true beauty lies. 

Leaving On a Jetplane

and I don't know what to wear.


Hope you sang along with that one. Anyways, I am headed to Odessa to see my babies in less than 48 hours and I am so excited, but it has really got me thinking about airplane attire. I know, I know, it's only 45 minutes, it doesn't matter. But you know that feeling when you've traveled and want to change clothes because you feel gross? Ok maybe it's just me, but I don't want to feel like that. I want to feel cute and be able to wear my outfit the majority of the day. So I decided to gather some of my favorite celebrity airport looks that are cute but maintain the need to be comfortable. Lauren Conrad is my go to travel wear girl, she is always caught lookin so cute at the airport.

Vanessa Minnillo looking casual but polished with a tshirt
and a blazer.
Via

Jennifer Aniston has the right idea with the boyfriend jeans,
slip on shoes, and scarf.
via

Rachel Bilson cozied in layers with the leggings, scarf,  & boots combo.
via

Perfection.
via

She just knows exactly my style when it comes to traveling
or how I want to dress anyways.
via

I'm thinking on the way there I'm going to rock the leggings, oversized long sleeve t-shirt, with a sweater because it's always cold, and a light scarf that adds a pop of color. Only thing I am hesitant on is boots or flats? I mean boots would be so cute, but what an effort take on and off at security. Still contemplating that one. I'll be back tomorrow with Thursday things, which will be filled with airport necessities.

What do you think? What's your favorite way to travel?

Countdown begins.

Weekends are good, especially with they include a fancy meal with my boy, and end with brunch. Not too mention, my best friend came into town and we got to spend the night catching up which is always a plus.

Brunchies from Rio Mambo 

Dress I've been waiting to wear.
Dress:LC for kohl's 

I spent more time than planned getting my family's dogs all taken care of. Which included, baths, shots, vaccines, and medicine to get them healthy. But that's ok, because they make pretty great and entertaining car companions.

My favorite attire from this past weekend.

Tunic:Jcrew, Sweater: Cable and Gauge, Leggings:Target,
Boots:Ciao Bella, Watch:Gifted, Fossil

On to the real reason for this blog,

In exactly 4 days, I will be on a 45 minute flight to Odessa to see my big sister and her precious kiddos. Can't wait to hug them. Can you believe it takes 6 hours to drive there, but you can hop on a plane for 45 minutes and be there? Transportation is wonderful. 

In about 3 1/2 weeks, I will be going on a weekend trip with the boyfriend and his family to a cabin in Grapeland, TX. I am excited for a little vacation, and too add its the weekend before the next which is spring break. So definitely looking forward to some travel time and little breaks from school to keep me going. 

Like I said in 4 weeks it's spring break, which by then I will be so glad to have because I always get to get away with my mom and go shopping! 

Have a lot to look forward too, but trying to keep my head up from drowning in school work. 

How was your weekend? What are you looking forward too, anything exciting? 

How can one not be ecstatic to see this little cutie? 

I vow to love you in all your forms.

"Life's all about moments of impact and how they change our lives forever." 
-The Vow 

You know when you see a movie and you walk away saying that's not real life but I really wish it was? Well yesterday, I saw The Vow. Honestly, more than anything it inspired me. I walked away wanting to know what my relationship looked like from the outside. I want to remember all those moments of impact.  So I came home and I sat and I tried to think of all those moments I never wanted to forget but I couldn't remember, not because I lost my memory but because they were stored to a place. I remember things as a hole instead of all those teeny tiny moments that take up a mere 3 seconds in time. They're are so many things I want to know and be able to re create. I should really keep a journal. But for now, I just want to go back.

I want to remember the place where Boyfran asked me out, because I remember the moment so clearly. Everything that happened, but where was it? I would love to go sit at this place and be able to relive it.
I'll always remember this one day right before boyfriend was leaving for what we thought was going to be a year. He took me to this park we sat and it started pouring rain, but the kind of rain that makes everything have the clearest haze over it. We sat and we just kissed. Now, usually I'm not one for kissing in front of everyone else but it was perfect. I didn't care what anyone else thought.

The rainy day. 

I remember this one night and me and my parents were going to get frozen yogurt and we were riding in my moms convertible with the top down. It had been a really good day, and I remember sitting in the back with the wind slapping me and my face and thinking I never want this to end. "I am so content".
My senior year formal (prom). the afterparty, I talked until 4 in the morning, staring at the lake, laughing. Deciding that I was exactly where I needed to be.
The roadtrip me and boyfriend took to Odessa last semester. We listened to the same song over and over again and stared at the never ending road. 6 hours in the car to and from. It was perfect.
I remember little things, bits and pieces. I am so happy with my life.

This morning I woke up eager to start taking it all in. I try so hard but then I'm out of the moment. I think you just have to live to life fully and when you sit down to go back, you'll notice you remember more than you think. It's always fun to feel all it over again though, amazing what a memory can do for you. Especially, those moments of impact.