Sweet Sweet Summer

Woah. It's been a long time. School has really taken over my time, but don't worry because one final stands between me and summertime. Not counting in the fact I have may minimester beginning on friday, but technically I'm moved home and as far as I'm concerned, it's summertime!

On the note of summertime, me and boyfriend headed over to our annual "summers coming" event, Mayfest. It's basically a festival in ft.worth accompanied with all things carnival like such as duck races, fried food, and frightening yet exciting looking rides. Texas is really heating up, so it was a little hot outside, but none the less I left stuffed, happy, and with some goodies you could only buy at festivals (like giant sour punch straws filled with yummy goo). It was a good weekend & I am ready for summatime. How about you?

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Sweet sweet summertime, I am so thankful for you arrival. 

Dad Weekend.

I have grown so accustomed to weekend loving the past 4 months that when this weekend arrived, I expected nothing short of perfect. My weekend was missing something the entire time. The company of my boy and my mom. My heart ached for my mom to be in the kitchen studying when I arrived down stairs, and by 5:30 pm( maybe at 6 or 7, I never really know) I anticipated a heavy knock on the door from my boy who was excited for a good evening out, but mostly to just be together. Yet, come friday morning, I was getting cute pictures from my mom who is having the time of her life in New York, and a phone call from my boy saying he was missing me terribly, but having fun in Austin. Peoples lives always are moving, whether we are present or not. I am so glad they had a wonderful weekend, and although my weekend lacked that excitement of the normal, it definitely compensated with some time to reflect and relax, that I apparently needed more than ever.

My sister called Sunday afternoon wishing she was at home on "dad weekends". And I was quickly reminded that I missed my mom a lot, but I really love "dad weekends" because our sunday morning was spent under one dim lamp as the morning sunshine seeped through the blinds as me and my dad both read ourselves to an awaken state of mind. We then searched around for a new sunday brunch place, and wound up a popular place called Luciles, where we enjoyed New Orleans style beignets and some good old Eggs Benedict (blackstone style with bacon and grilled tomatoes). What a better weekend to end a weekend than with a pile of fried popovers covered in powdered sugar? It was truly the cherry on top to a weekend I have truly been craving.

Cheers to the weekends keeping me sane.

Like Crazy.

Just watched Like Crazy for the first time. Really it's the saddest movie and if you only like fairytales and happy endings, this is not the movie for you. Despite the fact that when it ends, you contemplate watching it again hoping for a different ending, this one part is truly beautiful.

“I thought I understood it, that I could grasp it, but I didn’t, not really. Only the smudgeness of it; the pink-slippered, all-containered, semi-precious eagerness of it. I didn’t realise it would sometimes be more than whole, that the wholeness was a rather luxurious idea. Because it’s the halves that halve you in half. I didn’t know, don’t know, about the in-between bits; the gory bits of you, and the gory bits of me”






Happy Weekend. 

Friendship

I find myself sitting and thinking about brides and how they choose their bridesmaids, they often have so many that are best friends and they've known forever. Maybe, it comes with time, but I get paranoid thinking about who will mine be? I'm ending my second year in college, and going onto my 3rd with very few friends made in college. Don't get me wrong, I have friends, but as embarrassing as it sounds out loud to admit, I have few friends. This is not a social issue and by no means does it depress me. However, most of the people who really know me are far off in college, and I constantly ache wishing my friend circle didn't have to change just because of college. I'm not an outgoing person by any means, and have had the same group of friend since kindergarten it seems. So the college transition was not easy to say the least. I found 2 wonderful girls that I really love with my heart, but still find we don't spend too much time together due to differing schedules. When we do though, it is always pure bliss.


Tonight my friend Anna and I were able to pick the exact day for us to have dinner, it fit both of our weeks better than perfect. We cozied up at a table at 5:00 pm and finished our food way before 6:00. Yet words just flowed from my mouth when I sit with her. I feel as though their are no judgments, no blocks, and no worries. I have no restraints on what I am going to say, and the time is never spent awkward. A smile always arrives as she appears, and as I drive away, I feel as though I've found a friend. At 9:00 pm, we decided it was time to close conversation, and found ourselves lingering for 10 more minutes in the parking lot. Even though our time together is few and far between. I can't help but wonder if this is the friend that I've been praying for. That she will be there when I'm getting married on my wedding day. I don't really care, but even though I don't have a giant group of friends, I am more than content with the few that mean the world to me.


Love nights like this.


Happy middle of the week!

Today

after my one class, I needed to go get some groceries. Only this time, for some odd reason, Kroger was calling my name. I am broke college student who has little amounts of money and in desperate need of some food. You would think I would head on over to walmart like normal, but nope. I drove about 5 minutes up the road and found myself roaming through Kroger. If I was at home, I would have found myself in Central Market & that could have been a very expensive trip. Our Kroger is set up as a much tinier mini version of Central Market including fresh produce, smell of flowers when you walk in, and lots of freshly cooked food ready to be taken home. I stumbled around looking for some things I don't normally buy like flat pita bread, Odwalla protein drinks, Kashi mocha cherry chocolate bars, and veggie burgers. Although, the few items purchased cost more than normal, I enjoyed a little time feeling like a grown up (only I was paying attention to every "with card" price).  Still have no explanation for why I went to kroger walked right up to the customer service counter got a Kroger plus card, and spent way more than usual on very few groceries. But hey, somedays all you need is a little change of pace.

Sleepy Body.

I've reached a lovely level of what I'm going to call exhaustion, but it could also could be classified as just plain done with school ready for summer laziness. 

Either way, I am feeling it more than ever. I've had a pretty busy last two weeks, which included me commuting at least 4-5 days, meaning I've been waking up at 6:00 to drive back to school in time for my morning classes. I've also had my schools registration which starts at 7:00 am and TCC's registration for summer that began at 6:00 am and I woke up at 5:30. Throw in those early mornings with some late nights with no naps, and you've got me who wants to do absolutely nothing. Luckily, these next two weeks are pretty light in the school area and I'll be able to relax and enjoy a little netflix and napping. On another note, during the summer, my body likes to think it is invincible (can stay up way too late and wake up way too early). I can already feel it beginning to think that it's usual 10:00 pm bedtime is now 1:00 and will soon enough be 3:00-4:00 in the morning. Anyone else feeling the same way? 

Happy Monday to you all, hope your getting in some relaxation time as well. 

Thursday Things.

This Thursday is going to be a little different, only because I feel it relevant to do a post pertaining to my boys birthday yesterday.

So here it is:

Things I've learned from my boy.

-To always finish a race stronger than when you begin it. He always encourages me in a run to push myself especially within that last stretch when I'm feeling like I’ve been hit by a truck. With him by side, I'm encouraged to run faster, stronger, and longer. Not only in a race but also in life. 

-To find a source of motivation, whatever it may be. Find the motivation for whatever you want to do and go after it. Don't look back. 


-Don’t worry about what other people think. Bottom line. Their opinion should not affect your actions, no one should be standing in your way.

-In a relationship, you need to be a team. If your in it together, it will work.  Just be a team. 

-No sense in crying over spilled milk. If something happens, crying, worrying, or stressing will not fix it. So let it be, because it's already been done. 

-Open your mind. You can't live life freely, if your constantly closing everything off. You have to open your mind, widen horizons to really be able to see. 

-Honesty is the best policy. Especially with the person you love. If you can be open with them, then things are easier all around. 

He's pretty special, and I am unbelievably blessed.